Let's hit it.

II Sam 1:10 'Ishbosheth Sauls's son was forty years old when he began to reign over Israel, ad reigned two years. But the house of Judah followed David.'

This guy, Ishbosheth, is known as Saul's son and the king against whom David fights the 7 years' war before David is made King over Israel.

This just makes me ponder how much preparation matters and how just one moment could be everything your life stands for.

Jesus didn't start his ministry until he was 30. He spent almost 30 years in training- probably as a disciple of other rabbis! AND HE WAS JESUS! And then he had his ministry on earth for 3 years. whoa.

This is SO IMPORTANT for me to remember! I'm supposed to be making home my mission field because this is where He has me now. I'm supposed to claim my school and work and every where I go (this is difficult to put in action).

I am being prepared for something greater than anything in this world! For the marriage of the church to the Christ! The kingdom is at stake and I need to get a move on it! Let the Lord prepare the way and prepare my heart and prepare a field for me to harvest with my spiritual family.

Sometimes I just itch to get across the seas and reach those that are far from me, especially those who have little to no opportunity to learn about the truth! I desire to reach the least-reached. I desire to be in the eye of the storm! I desire to go to battle.

I've always considered home="staying by the stuff". However; home needs to be a battle too! Maybe in regards to the other countries of the world, I'm here by the stuff doing the hardest work: prayer! (I need to be fervent and consistent in that!) But I am IN the battle when I go to work, when I go to school, when I bow and pray for my roommate and for my sisters and brothers and the lost and the world, when I worship the Lord in Spirit and in truth.

Sometimes I act as if I'm thinking "this moment is not what it's about, so i'll just live BLAH-like for now and really commit myself when the time has come". NO. THE TIME IS NOW. PREPARATION IS JUST AS IMPORTANT! Man, I need to learn that in EVERY aspect. School. Work. Loving People. Obeying the Lord. His ministry via my life. PREP PREP GET READY FOR HIS RETURN. I hate that I've thought things like that and that I'm so prone to becoming lukewarm.

I'm ready. to go. now. Let's dive in. get to it. There are things to do, people to love, time to spend with the Lord and not in making myself look pretty or playing games or staring at the wall. Get up. ready. go.

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And he set me on fire and I am burning alive.

With his breath in my lungs

I am coming undone.

And I cannot hold it in and remain composed.

Love's taken over me and so I

propose the letting myself go.

I am letting myself go.

You are my joy.

You are my joy.

You are my joy.

You are my joy..

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There will be those essential years. or maybe a moment. Something that will define you.

They could be now. and then. and tomorrow.

Regardless, For now: Live in the now. Always live in the now.

In everything give thanks.