I have had so much joy lately. I seriously don't know how I have experienced so much healing in the past month, but glory to God. My mind is enthralled with Him and his Word constantly; I feel empowered and strong, yet able to be emotional, and okay with being weak. It is something I'm not used to. I believe God is using multiple people in my life to heal me, and it truly is working. I cannot describe the abundant growth that has happened through several struggles, confusion, and hurt I've dealt with over the past year just from my past and much attack from the enemy. I still have much to sort through and deal with regarding my entire life thus far, but I am so extremely blessed and so thankful and excited about the wonderful works and attributes of the Lord! I want to tell everyone boldly and compassionately and passionately. I am more passionate about the Bible than I have ever been in my life, and I would like to say my utter joy can be contributed to that fact, however I know God has also been using people and I simply cannot deny that. As much as I pridefully desire to be okay on my own, I truly am so glad that I am not okay on my own. Admitting my struggles and hurts has been so good and humbling, and Christ has truly been my healer. He has allowed me to be calm and happy and trusting in him while still being extremely passionate and burdened about the lost and the hurting in the world. It is true when Jesus says 'Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light' (Matt 11:28-30).
I must think about this more, because I really don't understand exactly what God has done to set me free. I have been held captive to fear and emotional bondage for quite some time, and I am free! I am even able to cry tears of joy at my freedom, though I don't understand it. I am so thankful. But I am still aware and trying to walk circumspectly because I know the enemy is walking about seeking whom he may devour...not that I'm important enough for the enemy to be after me. But my flesh and the world is pretty crummy too.
Thank you so much, Lord. You are so good. I love you.
I must think about this more, because I really don't understand exactly what God has done to set me free. I have been held captive to fear and emotional bondage for quite some time, and I am free! I am even able to cry tears of joy at my freedom, though I don't understand it. I am so thankful. But I am still aware and trying to walk circumspectly because I know the enemy is walking about seeking whom he may devour...not that I'm important enough for the enemy to be after me. But my flesh and the world is pretty crummy too.
Thank you so much, Lord. You are so good. I love you.
