Avoiding fun work with other fun work

I have plenty of free time in my digital media class. So yesterday I thought I'd learn a bit of tricks in photoshop. I picked a purple/blue theme :)

Dandelion

Yucky Cigs

Plants & Sun

Blue Bumble Bee :)

Grasshopper

Excuse me??

I love facebook, but I miss blogging.

I'm so bad at remembering things, so I think if I type it all out I'll remember better.

I'm growing up and I rarely see the people I love most- my family and my best friend. I miss my mom and my sister especially. And I miss emme a lot too.

Somehow I am always busy, but I don't want to be and I don't mean to be. I'm sick of musical. I have been from the beginning, and I'm only doing it because of McKenzie. That probably sounds bad, but it's honest. It's completely a new experience, but it's not better. I hope it will be by the time we perform, though. Yesterday I had to pay $80 for dance shoes (tap and jazz) which I probably will not use again after Nov. 16. Not to mention the $65 for the cast fee and $15 for Tiger Act we I have yet to pay. I won't even begin to list the 500 other payments we've had to make (that is hardly an exaggeration), and still have to make, for anything the school can possibly think of. Thankfully, dad's child support pays for it all. I like having to manage it all, but it's difficult at times when I feel like I'm spending MY money (I am sometimes, but I don't really have much money of my own to spend, so it's just a think-feel-thing). I'm already spending money on things "required"- I can't imagine how stressful it must be for adults- especially newly married couples and college kids and adults with lower-paying-jobs- having to constantly pay all their money back to what usually seems like stupid things. I don't know how all the kids at my school afford to go there? seriously. how?? Anyways- back from the long tangent of complaining: If it weren't for Mac, I would have tried very hard to come up with a great excuse to quit the musical in the first week.

I really have no right to be complaining about anything. I'm so blessed. Sometimes I just feel I need to vent from my own little selfish point-of-view.

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I'm in my digital media class at summit tech right now. At the beginning of class, a guy named Jack kept dropping the F-bomb over and over. which is. okay. whatever. you're dumb. I'm not sure why he was doing so exactly because I had my amazing headphones on that block everything else out, but I realized what was happening after I saw some people freaking out a little and just laughing and getting all passionate about whatever they were arguing about? I don't know. Anyways, so I took my headphones off and next thing I know He's using Christ's name in vain and saying "you know what? F*** Jesus Christ* (directed at me) over and over and I was telling him to stop and he wouldn't so I threw my headphones down and stormed out the door. I was very angry because he was purposefully cursing at my God and he has no clue what he's doing. It was extremely unnecessary, out of the blue, and disrespectful.

anyways.

I hope to get time to clean my room today. That's all I've been wanting to do lately. I will feel much more refreshed once my living space and free of clutter and dirt.